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Balancing Act!

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Procrastination and Reality!

Bertie had noticed that he possessed a particular skill. It was not necessarily a useful skill and one that he had never associated with himself so far. He had discovered that when it came to making decisions or changes in his life he was the master of procrastination!

In fact, if he had been give a decision to go travelling he would have probably procrastinated about it for a while. Thinking it all through and going over every little detail.

He also realised that the opposite of procrastination is reality.

They first introduced themselves to him as the conflicting voices in his head. Procrastination would provide him with excuses as to why he should not do something. It was really helpful in giving him alternative things to do, to focus on and tasks to complete so that he could avoid thinking and proactively doing what it was he was procrastinating about.

Reality was the voice of reason. Reality argued against procrastination and reminded why he needed to focus on the thing(s) he was avoiding. Reality gave him real time scales to work towards and brought him back to what he should be focusing on. Reality reminded him of the truth of the situation whether he wanted to face it or not. It also pointed out when procrastination had taken over….

Bertie began to observe the two voices quietly arguing and manipulating in his head were not so much fighting against each other but striving to reach a balance. The balance where priority was given to what needed to be completed for that moment in time, to not use the time to dwell on worrying and “what ifs”. Procrastination helped distract from the what if questions and reality kept the balance by helping him to regain focus when he needed to.

The trick was, firstly, not to get too concerned that Bertie was hearing voices in his head. Secondly, was to identify when the balance was tipping and adjust accordingly.

Bertie decided that neither of these tasks were easy ones and may take some time to accurately implement. The reality of the situation was that he had observed and noticed what he was doing, his task was to no longer procrastinate at taking action to maintain a balance of the two.

Plain sailing

Sit back and enjoy the ride
Sit back and enjoy the ride

Bertie had experienced many new things in such a short space of time, but what was to happy next was completely new to him. He was rocked gently to sleep in the comfort and darkness of the backpack he had now begun to call home. As he was drifting off he though how strange it was that he was able to become so settled in the security and familiarity of the backpack as quickly as he had done. It had not taken long at all. Once he had got use to the familiar surroundings and smells he began to think of it as a place of safety. He reflected that it was a bit like life. When we first arrive somewhere it can be so strange, all the new sensations almost attacking your sense and over loading them with new information to process. It is a tiresome process, but after a few days of getting your bearings, of seeing, hearing and smelling the same things you can begin to notice familiarities and things which you didn’t at first. You begin to see the same people and suddenly the place that caused you to become so overwhelmed in the first place now feels comforting and familiar.
This new sensation was so relaxing. A gentle and rhythmic rocking. It came as a sudden shock to Bertie when he was pulled from the pack into the bright glare of the sunlight. He was placed on a slightly wet but warm wooden surface. As his little beady eyes slowly become adjusted to the shock of the sudden sunlight he began to look around…all he could see was turquoise blue! Where was he? He felt panic begin to rise within him. He had two options, he could panic and try to roll back to the safety of the back pack, the security that he knew, or he could calm himself and embrace the experience by taking in more of his surroundings.
After a few moments of contemplation the decision had been made by default and as he began to get out of the thoughts in his head he could hear and see more. He was, in fact, in good company. There were a few people around him all smiling at him. One thing that had amazed Bertie on this journey so far was how everyone had smiled at him as he posed for various photographs.
He noticed a beautiful white sandy beach. The calm and tranquility of the surroundings. He began to relax, so relieved that he had soothed his initial panic. The more he relaxed the more he saw, and it was amazing! He began to realise that he had a prime seat to watch the world drift by. This was the life he thought to himself. A million miles away from the dusty and dark charity shop that had once been his home. Now Bertie was calm he was beginning to see the light and the benefit in embracing the journey.